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I dream and long for someone like you,
To come in my life and bring something new,
For I need some changes and perhaps hoping someday,
You would come to give answer to my prayer.

You have your life and I have mine,
Living apart from each other where everything is fine,
But there is a part of me I knew that is lacking,
I did not realized until you came knocking.

What a joy you bring when you came into my life,
Taking away the pain the past left behind,
My failures, defeats and all those stories,
Will be gone and replaced with your wonderful memories.

One Year of Blogging

When I began this blog about a year ago I never really knew what was going to come out of it. I'm not expecting something magical, I just wanted to express myself. Like many of the bloggers out there I want an outlet to express in words the thoughts that comes out of my mind about everything that is going on. You may find it boring or irrelevant but it is real for me, same thing that is happening in your lives that you wanna talk about. Whether it's just a thought or an actual experience I want to share it to someone else. To whom? I don't know. To you I guess whoever you are reading this. The potential is limitless.

Reality

What we all want is to be free and secure. What we find hard to accept is that it is impossible to be totally free and totally secure.

A Point of View

Do you go to Church that condemns you for being who you are, just so you can feel holy for an hour... I don't think so...

Understanding One's Self

If we do not understand ourselves we cannot know what is right for us, and if we do not know what is right for us we cannot begin to approximate what is right for other people. And fortunately for us, the more we know ourselves the more aware we are of our own doubts and dilemmas, while the more we can hold the belief that there are once and for all solutions in the major problems of living.

Valuable and Lovable

     We keep ourselves locked in this conflict over whether or not we are good, and we hang on to the fantasy of perfect parents because we have not questioned our assumption that 'My sense of self-worth is something other people give me'. When we change our assumption to 'My sense of self-worth is something I give myself', we see that other people's good evaluation of us is the icing on the cake, not the cake itself, that the conflict over whether or nor we are good is irrelevant, and that the fantasy of perfect parents is one that we have outgrown.
      Those of us who had ordinary people as parents can, if we think about it, gain our freedom from the fantasy of perfect parents because we can construct a realistic belief along the lines of my parents tried to do the best they could. Through their own lack of understanding and through the necessities of their lives they cause me pain. This pain made me believe that I was not valuable and lovable, but now I know that this belief is incorrect. I was, as I am now and shall always be, valuable and lovable.
     Those of us who had as parents people who were cruel and indifferent to us have more difficult task in gaining freedom from the fantasy of perfect parents, for we have to see that whom we are born to is just a matter of chance. Some of us are very unlucky. That is annoying, but still no reason to believe that because we are unlucky we are unlucky in everything else. The realistic belief we need to construct is along the lines of, 'No matter who my parents were or what they did, I was, as I am now and shall always be valuable and lovable.

Chewy Under the Christmas Tree

Decorating for Christmas

Just a Thought

There is no reason why we should not indulge in a little sacrifice if it makes us feel better and helps to restore self-esteem. But we need to remember that we do good because it makes us feel good.

Chewy